Day 237: the calm descent

i’m now in the habit of pulling an all-nighter every night and then waking up past noon

for some reason, i don’t get the “where has the day gone” sense that i’d expect from doing this, mostly because i don’t feel hurried or in a rush to do anything right now

even though i know this current schedule is not supportive of my well-being and staying up until i’m basically falling asleep at my desk (why do i do this? not sure — i’d like to blame not being able to fall asleep in the heat but that’s pretty dumb) is a strange practice, but i somehow feel quite calm and even at ease

maybe this is the sleep deprivation wearing down my self-care sense who knows