Day 236: brainbarf

i’m sleepy but it’s way too hot in my room like at least 15 degrees hotter in here than in the rest of the house and i have no idea why maybe it’s because heat rises and i’m on the second floor? i could try opening the window but the last time i did that all the freaking mozzies came in and they went to town on me and i’d rather be hot than itchy

you might be wondering why mosquitoes come in when i open the window like hello don’t you have a screen it’s the 21st century but you gotta understand that my house is falling apart and no one does anything about it

like the window for instance used to have a screen but on one visit home i found that it had broken in the meantime and it’s still broken so now there’s a gap where all the bugs can find refuge inside my room. every time i come home, i find that something else in the house is broken and that no one has fixed it, like the bathroom light in my parents’ room stopped working and so they bought a little light that you plug into the outlet

not to mention that some things like the air conditioning aren’t even broken but we don’t use it because my grandpa thinks it’s a waste of money even though when i asked him how much it costs he couldn’t tell me so it’s just him being hella frugal as usual but this time it’s not cute well it’s never cute but this is a bit much because the heat wrecks me during the day and my dad walks around in his underwear because he can’t bear the heat either and why do we live like this

sometimes i think that i should be the one to fix up the house but i never stay long enough to actually make that a reality so maybe i should do it this time?

honestly one of the hardest parts about coming home and staying with my parents is that all the little things add up to make the environment physically uncomfortable and having to choose b/w being a human furnace or mosquito food makes me wanna bounce

whine whine whine