Day 396: 4am thoughts

personal

ok this is a brain dump but it’s from my 4am brain which means that i’m basically delirious and you should take everything i write here with a boulder of salt:

  • haven’t had alcohol or weed in 3 years now and don’t miss it

    • being sleepy gets me basically in the same state as being tipsy anyway

  • wow this also means that i went on my year of meditation retreats 3 years ago!!!

  • i’m rediscovering the super fun rule of dating where the amount of interest you show has an inverse relationship with how much interest the other person shows in you

    • in non-nerdy speak: people enjoy the pursuit and feeling like they won someone over

    • basically, the less invested you are in the beginning, the easier things are

    • i definitely prefer the stable part of a relationship where you’re both supporting each other rather than the courtship period

    • so here’s my dilemma: i’d rather be clear about my interest when dating and not play games, but i also recognize that our psychology is wired to find this really boring and lose interest when we’re on the receiving end

      • i’m susceptible to this as well: a little while back, a girl made her interest in me very clear and i lost much of my interest
      • but then again my interest wasn’t that strong to begin with so i think this mostly applies in the very beginning stages where you’re feeling things out
      • obviously, eventually you want to get to a place where the relationship is established and you both freely express affection and care

  • i keep cracking my right ankle because it feels stiff but i think i’m giving myself arthritis or something

  • i’ve been spending a lot of time working at the hive recently and i’m finally getting into flow again!!!! yay coding is fun

  • this also means i’m turning down most social things which begs the question of why i’m even in taiwan if i’m just going to be working all the time

  • surprise, i’m actually going back to the states at the end of the month to live in vegas with dope friends and actually ship browserflow

  • i really hope i don’t get covid because i will feel so silly for leaving the safest place in the world and going back to the land of coronavirus (usa)

  • but then again, it is what it is

  • wow i’m tired

  • i’m starting to get extremely excited about browserflow again which is great because i need to push hard to get this out the door

    • i’ve been playing with similar products in the past few days and no offense but browserflow just kind of kills it

  • i am worried about manifest v3 and their remote code execution policy because the fact that browserflow lets people build their own flows and run javascript might fall under the type of things that aren’t allowed

    • if browserflow fails b/c of manifest v3 stuff i will be very very very very sad
    • but then again, it is what it is

  • i still haven’t written the other parts of my 2020 review lmao

  • i really love my roommates here

    • i mean that’s kind of why i’m up now

  • okay good night