Day 390: i love you

yesterday during my trip
i peeled back the layers of my psyche
and found a little boy

a boy who desperately craved love
a boy crushed under the weight of losing his mom
a boy with a kernel planted deep within:
“am i unlovable?”

the boy has grown into a man
a man who believed he only needed himself
a man with barriers that kept everyone out
a man who thought he wasn’t worthy of love

i see the man
my heart breaks
i channel myself
and the universe

even if you’re not funny, i love you
even if you’re not successful, i love you
even if you don’t think you deserve it, i love you
i love you, i love you, i love you

the armor cracks
the shell falls away
revealing the boy
held in love